Saturday, October 23, 2010
Whoever said that Long Distance Relationship can be easy should be shot on the butt.
Long Distance Relationship (LDR) is not something that I want. Whyyy????
Firstly, there's the fact that we rarely get cuddle up and the time difference that's suck. I remember woke up at midnight and said "It's 7pm his time - I'll chat with him now!"
Secondly, do I have resources for LDR? No I don't and that's the big problem. Yeah we can hook up via phone (which is caused hefty bill at the end of the month), email, skype as often as we can but I can't see myself spending money to fly to the middle of nowhere just for him alone.
It's hard and I admit that sometimes I break down and cry because I miss him so much. LDR can seem like torture at times. It can be a bit of an emotional roller coaster with sudden highs followed by big lows. I remember that I keep a good supply of tissues by the bed...sounds silly huh but believe me it's useful tips.
And after think and think and think I don't see long term future for us. I don't think it would be wise for me to continue considering everything it would take for us to maintain a long distance situation. But I'm not ready to give up yet...I love him too much :(
P.S. Pic that I use in this post is not my courtesy...
Monday, October 18, 2010
On the other side some friends are always telling me:"Oh how lucky you are to have that size, it must be not hard for you to find clothes." Hey I tell you it's not that easy. Sometimes I had to find my clothes on Kid's Dept, I use size 12 for kid...yeah...yeah...yeah I'm that skinny. It's hard for me to carry off a lot of clothes especially for the feminine dress cuz my lack of boobs and ass.
I wish I had a curves!!! I want the boobs and the ass!!! I want that chubby cheeks!!! And yeah I would be very happy when someone told me: " Hey you gained some weight ya." But it doesn't mean that I wanna be fat :P I just want curves!!! Curves like this ^_^
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
♥ ♥ Oh Boy….♥ ♥
When you look me in the eye
I feel so high in the sky
When you just pass me by
I sometimes think I’m gonna die
I’m trying….I’m trying…
to make your heart start beating
Whenever you look at me smiling
It’s me for whom you’ve been waiting
Sunday, October 10, 2010
9 Months 9 Days 11 Hours 36 Mins I have through year of 2010.
M going through the lowest phase of my life….!!! :(
M feelin so low..down-in-the-dumps kinda feelin’..:(
This is worst year that I ever had.
It’s even worst than 2007 when my ex-BF betrayed me.
It’s like my worst nightmare ever multiply it by 100 equals.
It taste like bitter pill that I have to swallow everyday. Really bites!!! And believe me, that feeling sucks…
But I have to go through….I’m trying not to complain too much, not too cursing and not to compare my life with other people whose in fact more lucky than I am…
I’m trying to be happy with what I have since I can’t say that my life is a total hell hole. I mean how ungrateful can I be then aite?
Just trying hard to hang tough, even though it seems like the hardest thing to do…After all Shit does happen aite?
Yeah there’s God…There’s hope!!! I think deep inside of me, I still have a little slightest hope for hope itself…Ciao Buubuu!!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, October 3, 2010
Whoaaaa…I really wanna scream hell out loud “Oh no!!! Mayday….Mayday!!!!! Somebody help me get out of this place…My job really made me go insane”.
Well I’m really stressed out actually…always on the edge of snapping at everyone…*sigh*
Major source of my anger is my boss, Mrs. Bitch. But confronting with her is not easy to do. There’s unwritten rules that said Boss is always right. Yeah she always right and I always wrong in her point of view. Every night I’m going back home the first thing I do is giving my family or friends an earful over Mrs. Bitch. But no matter how I rant to the whole world Mrs. Bitch is still going to be there tomorrow. It’s so devastated. I almost depressed at one point.
I just want one week where I’m not in pain emotionally or phisically. That’s not too much to ask right????????????????
Friday, October 1, 2010
Welcome back Muffin :D Like always…I love to say this to you:
P.S. I know it looks more like cupcake than muffin but I can't find a better pic :D