Sunday, November 14, 2010

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It's 9:00pm and I'm not doing anything. I should be doing my report that's due tomorrow or sleep, but I'm milking it out instead I log in to my blog and write this post. My sleep schedule has been kinda crazy for the past 2 weeks,someone told me that lack of sleep makes us look older, increases our risk of diabetes and cancer. Oh my God I'm going to die! Aaah! Sleep! Sleeeeeeep! I don't wanna die young....But I couldn't go to sleep...I couldn't. Why????? I dunno...They said that stress is fuel for an insomniac ride. Am I stress now? Maybe...pressure at work. Yeah Monday to Friday are just crazy, I have an eight-to-five job. Eight to five my ass. The reality is more likely 8 to 8 - that is AM to PM and sometime longer than that. It's just non-stop movement and thinking and I really wish I could take a break from all that crazy-ness.*sigh*

Last Friday I woke up with a head so heavy like a bulldozer. I woke up at 6AM. I should go to work but with that stupid headache I promptly go back to sleep for four hours, wake up, and go to the doctor. Doctor said that I'm too tired my blood pressure is just too loooooow 80/60, my weight is only 42 Kgs from normal weight 45 Kgs. I look so pale like a *zombie*. I should put more attention to my health and eat health food.

I wish Muffin is here by my side. Give me a hug and I know I will be fine. SOS for Muffin..... where are thou....???? It's been a week I haven't seen you :( Do you miss me like I miss you?

Then I turn on my music player and play a song called "A World without You" by Emma Bunton. When I first heard that song, I was so immediately connected to the track after hearing the lyric.This song is a very personal one to me.It’s wholely about how I feel about Muffin. yeah I missed Muffin quite terribly..

Try to hear the lyric...

I know that you can hear the rhythm of the rain/Although we're miles apart I know you feel my pain/I try to be so strong I try to carry on/But since you left the sun don't seem to shine.

Everything that I touch turns to blue/When I'm living in a world without you/I'm going crazy baby I am missing you/Can't imagine all I go through when I'm living in a world without you/I'm not alone I know that you can feel it too.

Btw tomorrow is Muffin's birthday I wish him all the happiness in the world!! Much love to you Muffin xoxo


  1. Happy Belated Birthday to 'Muffin' ... and don't you think sometimes music makes everything alright?

  2. On behalf of "Muffin" thank you 4 the wishes :D yeah music does help, just pick the song...Sad, happy, love, broken heart, angry, mad, calm, religius, anything...I always find a perfect song 4 my every situation :D