Me & My New Haircut

Oh and oh. I got a haircut today. A haircut that actually suited me.LAYERS!

Happy Birthday To Me

Thank you gaiz for all your wishes *hugs* now let me hear Jack Johnson singing birthday song for me :D

Lust Binds Her

She thought it was all long over between them and she was not going to look back. Until that day. She received short message from him "Hey". And it had been a long...long time since seeing his name had made her light up like a firework display. She felt like butter being spread on hot toast. A simply message that could melt her heart instantly.

His presence means the absence of her sanity. She's like a junkie picking up her needle after years of sobriety and there she is going back at stage one. She can't find her feet. All she can feel is the warm gasps of his breath and tickles of lust that suck her in. And precisely that moment, she give in. To the animal inside. And let go of shame and let her be her. For she has become what she has become.

SHE CALLED IT LOVE WHILE OTHERS CALLED IT STUPID

She is head-over-heels for this guy, he's literally flipped her world upside down and she still don't know how to recover. He's become a part of her daily routine and she can't spend a day not seeing/hearing from him.
This guy...he has the ability to change her live and in a second, he has the ability to ruin it. He has the ability to make her doubt herself.He occupy her head for so long.
And then what? He’s head-over-heels for something else. He totally blind-sides her and tells her, that he needs to see where he is in life first. In other words, he only wanted to play. But she keep justifying this guy and stand up for him. She puts her fucking trust in him. And she totally fuck herself over. And she never stop to think...she just do it.
It's scary, how she becomes somebody she would've failed to recognize a few years ago. And she has become this, in his shadow. Chasing him, in and out of the light.

When someone so close to you suddenly becomes a stranger you can hardly hold a conversation with, the stench of rejection makes you gag and wish that everything could go back to how it was before.

End of Chapter

Metaphorically, he ended a certain chapter of her life that day. A chapter which has been dragging on for three years.He did not say a word, but his eyes told a story. The quiet he whispered said more than those words. She looked at silence.The sky around her seems to darken in an instant, she drowned in defeat. The pain etched so deep in her heart. Her eyes have dried, yet the tears still fall invisibly. Her face...blanketed by a forced smile.
"This is not love.I just persuaded myself that it was, he was never mine" she told herself. This was the end. All that they had gone through, all that they had said, was gone. She wished at this point that she could be like him, able to forget everything without a second thought, without any pain whatsoever. She looked down. He turned around, stood up straight and walked away and she was just that – broken.

I Called Him Mr. Genius

I won't Give Up by Jason Mraz.I am listening to this song on repeat since the past 1 hour with literally no breaks. If you follow me on twitter or read my previous post maybe you knew that I've been in my low stage of life and by listening to this song it brings me a little hope. Yes God loves me and I should not give up. It's a beautiful song and I can see you all nod and agree to what I just said, no?

As many of you know I have been a big fan of him for couple years. He is so talented, his music is beautiful and he is one of a brilliant lyricist that I know from my era. He's one of my inspirational artist. I fall in love with his song and voice every time I press play. Not only that when he cover other artists music he even impress and sometimes he made it sound far better than the original. My favorite cover version is Good Old Fashioned Lover Boy, I love this song, I love Queen and Jason Mraz made me love this song even more. I am proud to be his fan :)

Do yourself a favor and go listen to Jason Mraz's new song and I promise you will not be disappointed. Enjoy.



"I Won't Give Up"


Hmmmm ... Hmmmm ... Hmmmm ... Hmmm ...

When I look into your eyes
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
There's so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

And when you're needing your space
To do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find

'Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No, I won't give up

I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got yeah, we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you're still my friend at least we did intend
For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I've got, and what I'm not
And who I am

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up
Still looking up.

I won't give up on us (no I'm not giving up)
God knows I'm tough enough (I am tough, I am loved)
We've got a lot to learn (we're alive, we are loved)
God knows we're worth it (and we're worth it)

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up