This Is Not A Goodbye

Friday Nov 26, 2010 was last day of my ex-supervisor work in our ofc...Yeah she left us to start a new job in her new office which I believe will be much way better than our ofc now.
It was sad moment when I had to say goodbye to her, I couldn't hold my tears. She meant a lot to me. She taught me a lot of thing. Some people know her as vicious woman but as one of junior who ever work under her I know her as a very nice & caring woman. It was just the way she express her feeling...she don't like to be courteous, she's to the point kind of woman. I feel truly blessed to have you as my supervisor in my work life. Maybe I never make you proud and I’m deeply sorry for put you in a trouble when I’m doing mistake, for silly question that I ever asked. Big thanks for your help, for being understand, for being patience…
I love you Mba Ririn...Don't forget us...This is not a goodbye as I believe we will come across again someday. I wish you all the best in your new ofc.
Here is a pic of me, mba Ririn (on the left side who used a black Hijab) and all colleagues who love her so much.

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It's 9:00pm and I'm not doing anything. I should be doing my report that's due tomorrow or sleep, but I'm milking it out instead I log in to my blog and write this post. My sleep schedule has been kinda crazy for the past 2 weeks,someone told me that lack of sleep makes us look older, increases our risk of diabetes and cancer. Oh my God I'm going to die! Aaah! Sleep! Sleeeeeeep! I don't wanna die young....But I couldn't go to sleep...I couldn't. Why????? I dunno...They said that stress is fuel for an insomniac ride. Am I stress now? Maybe...pressure at work. Yeah Monday to Friday are just crazy, I have an eight-to-five job. Eight to five my ass. The reality is more likely 8 to 8 - that is AM to PM and sometime longer than that. It's just non-stop movement and thinking and I really wish I could take a break from all that crazy-ness.*sigh*

Last Friday I woke up with a head so heavy like a bulldozer. I woke up at 6AM. I should go to work but with that stupid headache I promptly go back to sleep for four hours, wake up, and go to the doctor. Doctor said that I'm too tired my blood pressure is just too loooooow 80/60, my weight is only 42 Kgs from normal weight 45 Kgs. I look so pale like a *zombie*. I should put more attention to my health and eat health food.

I wish Muffin is here by my side. Give me a hug and I know I will be fine. SOS for Muffin..... where are thou....???? It's been a week I haven't seen you :( Do you miss me like I miss you?

Then I turn on my music player and play a song called "A World without You" by Emma Bunton. When I first heard that song, I was so immediately connected to the track after hearing the lyric.This song is a very personal one to me.It’s wholely about how I feel about Muffin. yeah I missed Muffin quite terribly..



Try to hear the lyric...

I know that you can hear the rhythm of the rain/Although we're miles apart I know you feel my pain/I try to be so strong I try to carry on/But since you left the sun don't seem to shine.

Everything that I touch turns to blue/When I'm living in a world without you/I'm going crazy baby I am missing you/Can't imagine all I go through when I'm living in a world without you/I'm not alone I know that you can feel it too.




Btw tomorrow is Muffin's birthday I wish him all the happiness in the world!! Much love to you Muffin xoxo